Sometimes it is the one who loves you who hurts you the most.
Lily hasn’t always had it easy, but that’s never stopped her from working hard for the life she wants. She’s come a long way from the small town in Maine where she grew up – she graduated from college, moved to Boston, and started her own business. So when she feels a spark with a gorgeous neurosurgeon named Ryle Kincaid, everything in Lily’s life suddenly seems almost too good to be true.
Ryle is assertive, stubborn, maybe even a little arrogant. He’s also sensitive, brilliant, and has a total soft spot for Lily. And the way he looks in scrubs certainly doesn’t hurt. Lily can’t get him out of her head. But Ryle’s complete aversion to relationships is disturbing. Even as Lily finds herself becoming the exception to his “no dating” rule, she can’t help but wonder what made him that way in the first place.
As questions about her new relationship overwhelm her, so do thoughts of Atlas Corrigan – her first love and a link to the past she left behind. He was her kindred spirit, her protector. when Atlas suddenly reappears, everything Lily has built with Ryle is threatened.
With this bold and deeply personal novel, Colleen Hoover delivers a heart – wrenching story that breaks exciting new ground for her as a writer. Combining a captivating romance with a cast of all-too-human characters, It Ends With Us is an unforgettable tale of love that comes at the ultimate price.
This book went up for pre-order and I bought it without even a synopsis, or a cover. Because that’s what Colleen Hoover is for me. She’s a one-click – doesn’t matter to me what the story is about, I’ll find out when I crack it open. I never read early reviews because I don’t want the ideas of other people to influence my read. Picking up this book I knew a few things. It was making people cry. It was being praised as Colleen Hoover’s best novel yet – and it would break me.
Now, that’s saying a lot, considering Hopeless, Losing Hope and Maybe Someday are three of my Top Favorite Books of all time. These books matter to me – and not in the way most people think of a book, “Oh yeah I really enjoyed that.” Or “Sure, it was good.” These.Books.Matter. They’re living breathing things to me –
I didn’t even read the synopsis for this book. I stopped myself from reading anything and everything that was out there – I wanted to dive in head first and experience it all first hand – but I wasn’t prepared for the affect it would have on me. Or the fact that I literally couldn’t concentrate on anything but this story while I read it – work, husband, anniversary…. All went out the window while I lived this story. I met Lily and Ryle – on a rooftop in Boston; where their personalities leaped off the page, like only two strangers meeting for the first time can. Both of them suffering in their own way from the events of their day, ultimately bringing them to this very spot. This rooftop. This time. This conversation that will cement in their minds possibilities neither one of them really wants to admit to themselves. It was just one night. It was just one conversation. But …. it was full of naked truths.
“Fifteen seconds. That’s all it takes to completely change everything about a person. Fifteen.”
I can’t properly describe the emotions I felt reading this novel. I can’t properly describe the emotions I have at this moment writing this review. I had to step away – I had to take a few days to get my mind wrapped around this book. The words – the stages of experiences these characters have, evoked something inside me in a way I was not prepared for. I’ve been emotionally invested in Colleen’s characters in the past, but when I read It Ends With Us? I have never experienced that level of emotional involvement – In.My.Life.
“I feel like everyone fakes who they really are, when deep down we’re all equal amounts of screwed up. Some of us are just better at hiding it than others.”
We get to experience Lily & Ryle’s relationship from the beginning – we also get a glimpse into her past and the relationship she and Atlas cultivate at an age when everything is so new and intense. Everything you experience at fifteen feels like the beginning of the best thing in your world – or the most devastating thing you ever thought could happen. There is no balance at fifteen. But Lily & Atlas’s lives aren’t necessarily ordinary – their relationship built on the misery of their day to day lives. These two share a bond you can tell, still very much affects Lily – even now in the present.
“Sometimes – not very often at all, actually – a voice will penetrate past my ears and reverberate straight down through my body.”
It Ends With Us is told through a multitude of layers – from the very beginning. This is one of the hardest reviews I have ever written in the three years I’ve been blogging, because I don’t want to give away anything. This isn’t a second chance romance – this isn’t just a romance book – this isn’t a love triangle. This is a book that will blow your perspective away – leaving you questioning a lot of your own ideals. I felt this book on a whole other level because of my own experiences and once you read the book, you’ll understand that even more. It made me see things from a whole different perspective and I allowed myself to quit second guessing – and to quit making excuses not only for other people, but for myself.
I can’t tell you the amount of people I’ve told to read this – bought this for – talked about this story with. Colleen’s not just given us a novel – she’s given us a part of herself.
It was beautiful – it was ugly – it was funny – and it was real.
“There is no such thing as bad people. We are all just people who do bad things.”