~ Synopsis ~
In the end, did I stab him to be free of him? And free to what? Fuck? Snort? Party? Or free to be normal?
It was a very interesting situation, up there on Maundy,” Elliot said.
“Nothing like it in the world. It’s a safe place for people like me.”
“People like you? Can you be more specific?” He ran his finger on the edge of his blotter, and a chill went up my inner thighs.
“People like me means, I don’t know. Fuckers. We fuck because it’s what we do. Bus drivers drive. Accountants account. Policemen police. I’m a fucker. I fuck.”
This review is sooooooooo over due – I read this in one sitting when it came out in June of 2014 and I’m a bad blogger – Baaaaaaaaaaad blogger. Life gets in the way sometimes, but Use, the second installment in C.D. Reiss’s Songs of Perdition Series is nothing less than stellar. Out of all her Drazen characters, I think Fiona is my favorite of them all because the woman is raw – raw like an open wound that demands to be seen. There’s no hiding anything – nothing is concealed. She is who she is with no apologies.
The story picks up where Kick leaves off and we’re still weaving through this beautifully written story of Fiona, trying to figure out what exactly happened between her and Master Deacon on that fateful night that left him in the hospital and she in rehab. But the tension between Fiona and Dr. Chapman is subtly growing – leaving Fiona a wanton mess while she’s trying to figure out the crux of her issues. She is a user – a user of sex, drugs – a life of excess is really all she’s known, but Master Deacon cares for her like a master should – pushing her to a breaking point I’m not even sure she knows where it stops. Is this a good thing? I still don’t know – but the love Deacon has for her is palpable, even as we weave through the stories in flash back he steals the show.
Elliot is struggling with his attraction – attachment and above all feelings for Fiona – he’s her doctor – he’s supposed to be helping her, but their is a very grey area that he’s falling into as their relationship as doctor/patient blurs – she’s a self described fucker – she fucks. This is what she does. Everything around Fiona is erotic to her – everything gives her that feeling we all crave, but now she’s in a position where she’s supposed to examine her life choices and try and find a discernible rhyme and or reason to why she is who she is.
But how can you do that when you still don’t have the answers to the biggest question in this whole story – what happened that night between her and Deacon that left him bleeding and rushed to the hospital? What secrets are swelling inside of her that left her unleashing on the one man that’s been by her side doing everything he knows in his power to love and protect her – even from herself?
This book broke me – bad.
CD Reiss weaves a story about a woman who is flawed – raw and unapologetic about it, in the best way possible.
Check it out!