But college could set her free, right? If she can make it through this grueling senior year, then maybe. If she can just find that one person to throw her a lifeline, then maybe, just maybe.
Justin Milano, a college sophomore with his own set of quirks, could be that person to pull her from a world of solitude. To rescue her—that is, if she’ll let him.
I can’t tell you how much I love everything Jessica Park has written, and I literally jumped up and down when I found out Celeste got her own book.
You can read my 5+++++ Review……….. HERE.
And in celebration
~ My First Kiss ~
I’ve thought long and hard about this – and I debated if I wanted to take this literal – and then I would have been six years old and punched the poor kid making him cry – stolen his Kraft Macaroni and Cheese watch and THEN made him kiss me….. poor Kevin…
Or it could be… the first real kiss – toe curling – mind blowing – first real taste of love when I was 15.
At a party I snuck out of my bedroom window to go too – (sorry mom) the 8 of us sitting around in a circle in a dumpy apartment, it’s late at night and we’ve drank way too much wine that tastes of kool-aid… (again, sorry mom) and as we go round and round, streaking through the parking lot, or putting our feet in the toilet – things started to progress and he was dared to kiss me. The look on my face, I wish I had a Polaroid – pure fear, hope and shock all at once. My stomach was on a constant somersault and he just looked as cool as he could be, and even smirked at me. He gave me a little motion of his finger like Johnny Castle in Dirty Dancing and he took me out onto the balcony. He was 19 – my brother’s friend and I was hopelessly in love with him. He laughed a little, nudged me with his shoulder and asked me if I’d ever kissed anyone before.
Of course, me being the coolest 15 year old ever I shrugged my shoulders, gave him the most attractive look ever and said DUH – oh yeah – lots of times. Evidently letting him know without a doubt, if I had kissed someone? It wasn’t about to be what he had in mind…. So when I get nervous I fidget – like I have tourettes fidget; I twirl my hair within an inch of it’s life, I bounce my foot or a chain smoke…. and at this moment I was trying to do all three.
Luckily, this guy had known me for some time, and I’m fairly certain he had an idea of my feelings for him. He was leaning over the balcony looking up at the sky and I thought for sure he was stalling – because seriously, he was gorgeous and all I could think was he looked just like Jordan Catalano and why in the hell would he want to kiss some 15 year old chubby girl? So when I flicked my cigarette down to the ground I turned around to go back inside, assuming he was just going to let it be….But when I turned…. he grabbed the laces on my hoodie and pulled me against him – we were chest to chest…
And when he cupped my cheeks and looked down at me with those HUGE brown eyes that to this day, still…. damn….
He smiled my favorite crooked smile and kissed me within an inch of my life. There was nothing sweet about this – it wasn’t slow – it wasn’t gentle – he gripped his hand in the back of my hair and was forceful in a way that had me cemented on the spot. It wasn’t fast…. and we were out there long enough that the others started banging on the sliding glass door, ending what was to be the most perfect kiss in all of my adolescents… (friends can be assholes).
And when he finally broke away, and I wobbled a little – he put his hands on my shoulders to steady me, turned me around to face the door to go back inside and bent down, whispering in my ear – “If I’d known you had that in you, I would have done that a long time ago.”
About the Author:
Jessica is the author of LEFT DROWNING, the New York Times bestselling FLAT-OUT LOVE (and the companion piece FLAT-OUT MATT), and RELATIVELY FAMOUS. She lives in New Hampshire where she spends an obscene amount time thinking about rocker boys and their guitars, complex caffeinated beverages, and tropical vacations. On the rare occasions that she is able to focus on other things, she writes.
Please visit her at jessicapark.me and on Facebook at https://www.facebook.com/authorjessicapark and Twitter @JessicaPark24