more than I wanted my next breath, but how long before those lips were taken
away? How long before my heart would get ripped from my chest a second time? I
almost didn’t survive the first — I knew I wouldn’t live through the second.
pulled back and slapped him across the face. “How dare you!”
the steering wheel. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry I shouldn’t have assumed—”
yelled. “That I wouldn’t be completely pissed off? That I wouldn’t be
shattered!” My voice wavered. “Totally wrecked forever because I’ve been
mourning the loss of my best friend for five damn years only to find out he’s
very much alive and suddenly wanting to play the white knight?” My body started
to shake. “I died that day!”
with pain. “Amy, I had to protect you… at all costs I had to protect you.”
broke my heart,” I whispered.
his hands through his hair before answering. “Ames, sometimes what’s the best
for us — is exactly what hurts the most.”
at him. Instead I looked down, down at my bare legs, at the outfit I’d almost
paraded about in before a crowd of horrible drunk men in order to make money. I
wasn’t the same girl he’d left. I was damaged in the worst way. Because by
saving me, Ax had taken away all purpose from my life. When I thought he’d
died, my only goal was to live because he hadn’t.
shame of my situation was crippling.
utterly alone. Abandoned, even by my best friend.
And now you come for me…” I licked my lips. “I’m not vain enough to think it’s
because you can’t find anyone to warm your bed at night, and I’m not confident
enough to think it’s because you missed me so much you just couldn’t stay away.
What do you want?”
away. “It doesn’t have to be like this. Had I known you were in this position—”
then bit down on my lip to keep from crying. “You would have driven here
faster? You would have rescued me sooner? Pitied me more? Take your pick, Ax.
Now tell me the truth. Don’t start off this new-found relationship with a lie.”
while then whispered, “You have something I need.”
took my breath away “Besides that.”
together and looked out the window at my dark and cramped apartment. “I have
exactly one stuffed animal from my old life, the one you gave me when I was
six. I have a Polaroid picture, a toothbrush, enough clothes to get me through
a week and a half of living, a hairbrush, two elastic hair bands — Do you see
where I’m going with this?” I sighed and ran my hands through my hair. “I have
nothing you need, let alone want. Believe me.“
his expression softened as he said, barely above a whisper, “Let me be the one
who decides that.”
Ames,” he murmured. “Don’t shut me out.”
looked straight ahead. “Five years where my tears were the only thing keeping
me company at night. I think you lost the right to tell me what to do.”
door opened. I gasped as humid air filtered in. “What are you doing?”
car.” He shrugged and gestured at the building. “Going into your apartment and
packing you up. We’ll stay at a hotel tonight.”
apartment not good enough for you?”
gun from his jeans, thumbed off the safety, and held it out in front of him. “I
just hate getting woken up in the middle of the night with gunshots ringing
out, don’t you?”
my eyes still trained on the gun.
people… people do,” Ax said softly. “Remember that.”
gaze. “Because in the end, it wasn’t the gun that broke my heart — it was you.”
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